I thought I would never be back here...that this blog will go on to a "better" place and join all the other abandoned grayvyard of thoughts, unvisited and forgotten...It comes to mine that I really should use it to edit my creativity and stop mopping about my lack of life has I wish it would be.It is up to me isn't it, to feel a success or a failure...I have a private garden here for my thoughts, my soul, my beliefs and I left it unloved and unattended.
It is time to make the garden blossom and open, time to see the flowers growing out of my mind bloom in thousand vibrant shades and scents.
A fragrant wave to sooth, express, feel even what I cannot in real life. This is a very private garden indeed and I can no longer be the hawk, observing from afar but not getting involved. I do not feel aloof at all, just inadequate, unworthy of attention. But what I really lack is courage. Courage to put myself out there naked and unafraid of the opinion of others.The hawk has set its mind to scream and hunt, to land for a while and observe the real world. Be prepared, I am only getting started here...