This bitter taste of ashes that does not seem to want to leave your mouth...the sublte skip of your heart beat and sudden anguish that constrict your heart...it comes with simple words, simple facts.
You want to protect, to please and preserve a relationship a friendship and for the sake of another being you take on the weight of the world so they do not have to blame themselves, so suffer or hurt uselessly....
And then...you realise the worst way possible that all this was vain...the heart you should have preserved was your own because the other person is not ready, inclined, caring enough to show you the same courtesy.
The worsebBetrayal...comes from the one you love the most, the person you cherish, are ready to to throw yourself in front of a train for...the deepest cut comes from the sword you were holding to protect...the only hate comes from the love you felt...
So how do you deal with betrayal...hurt in return...remain silent and measure the frailty of the bond you thought you had forged...the thread was indeed poisoned and went straight to your heart & soul...sullying it, diminishing it, breaking it...
Are you ready to return the gesture...throw back the deadly arrow that you just been maimed with...And what will you achieve...the same destruction that your are suffering...
What will be the point achieved than lowering yourself...this will not bring any changes or satisfaction to the heart of the matter nor placing yourself as a victim.
Distance...forgiveness, compassion...may be the only path to erase the damage done...freeing yourself of the torment placated upon you...telling yourself you are not the one with the chaos inside.
Distance will be the first step...sealing the armor a bit tighter until the healing is complete...dealing not telling yourself it does not matter since it does...your heart, your soul is at stake.
In order to achieve a certain form of peace, you just have to let it go....
That's it, breath...and let go...the rest..TIME will see to it.
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